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I have a younger sister who is 14 now. I'm 18 and I'm about 6 inches taller than her. Repeatedly though throughout the last 3 or so years she has repeatedly sexually assaulted me. I kept making up excuses for her "she's young, she doesn't understand that its wrong and I don't like it and that it makes me feel disgusting" "her friends are bad influences and thing stuff like grabbing people's genitals and backing them into corners to touch them is funny so she's just copying them" but I know that she was probably aware of what she was doing. She's very intelligent and takes a great amount of joy in making other people upset and uncomfortable. I don't know what to do or how to handle anything. I am moved out now so she can't do stuff like that to me anymore but it constantly eats away at the back of my mind. I want to rip my skin off. I feel so gross and so violated. And I don't know what to do. She's my sister so I don't want her to get in trouble and additionally I don't think anyone would believe me because she's so much younger and shorter. As the oldest sibling I don't think anyone would believe I got assaulted like that by the youngest. Especially since she's very good at being manipulative and a very good liar. I don't know what to do but its really really upsetting me and I don't know what to do about it. I wish I could just erase those memories because scrubbing my skin off still hasn't worked.



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Re: Assault

Hi there I would just make it short ...

U r still in ur teen and probabably these thing happen one way or the other...some people shows it some don't....it was just an act of child life is so big.....

Listen though it is hard however try this one little thing....

Don't look world as a sexually oriented ring there are lot of people who suffer from serious illness disease or disability...

You cannot compare your pain with them...

Having said that as u are the elder one it is ur duty to reach out to your sister when she grows up and tell her that she was all fine that was just part of growing...

Who knows maybe she regrets it 100 times more than you and can opt for bad path like drugs alcohol weed etc...take care and pay it forward..

hi there ummmm i kinda just wanted to let you know that you aren’t alone in your past experiences. my sister, who was 8-10 at the time did some extremely violating and disgusting things to me, and once my aunts-boyfriend’s-daughter. i didn’t ever tell anyone until i found this website where i looked for help and learned i was assaulted.

my only advice for you is to tell someone you trust. maybe not in order to get your sister in trouble, just tell someone! they’re going to believe you, i promise. and if they don’t, then they weren’t the right person to tell.

my “experience” sort of led to me hating being touched at all? if that makes sense? there’s only one person who i feel comfortable with hugging or just in general being physically close to, and that’s the same person i’m planning on telling at some point in the next week. they might not believe me but it’s going to help to tell someone i actually know. i really hope it goes well and i don’t scare them too much.

so yeah, that’s some pretty sucky advice from someone with a similar experience. hope this helps. just remember, you aren’t worth any less as a person because of something your sister did to you.

i know the feeling of wanting to crawl out of your skin, and it’s terrible because you’re trapped inside that very same body that was so horribly violated. but it’s not your fault and it is never going to be. this does not define you. it’s going to get better, i promise ❤️