So I want to just put this out there. To see if it 'relieves' me of the burden of carrying a secret by myself. I will be 100% honest with myself and I will describe it in my own words. After this point there will be adult language and an adult topic will be discussed. Even though it started since I was 13, I think it's important to give this disclaimer. Read at your own risk. So ever since I was 13 years old I've been persuaded to do naked things in front of the webcam and in real life. I'm 23 now and this is still an ongoing thing. It started out by researching (as all kids do age 13) about my body, sex, porn and the like. I came across a forum called ExperienceProject aka. EP. On this website, which is now closed I discovered all sorts of things people did. One of them was nudism. Interested to learn more about what that was I took a look and registered for a 13yo. account to ask some questions of my own such as: what's the best way to masturbate and how many times a week, or what are the best places to walk naked/nude. As you might imagine, there were quite a lot of people, particularly older men who gladly answered that question and send me a friend request with it. The unknowing me liked all this newfound attention and gladly accepted the friend requests. Most of them sent me a message or tips that answered my question and stuck up a conversation with me about the subjects of masturbation, porn, nudism and webcamsex. I didn't really know what that last one was so I asked about it to one of the many people who replied. The person in question went by the name of David Steckel and was from the US. I'm Dutch myself so the idea of chatting with a guy all the way from the US and was willing to help me sounded amazing at age 13. He gave me some idea's on how to masturbate better, placed to be nude (both legally and illegally) and tips on how my mom wouldn't notice my naked endeavors. This went on for a couple of days/weeks on which I went onto ExperienceProject every day to see who else had replied. I don't really remember how much time in between there was exactly, but after a while the conversation switched to skype. Him having built rapport with me, I gladly gave it to him. Luckily I was wise enough at the time that I made a separate skype account which didn't include my full name, but rather an alias I came up with. This was something along the lines of Naaktejongen13 (translated: nakedboy13). Once on skype the conversations continued for a little while via chat. Here the chat went more and more erotic as I described to him the naked things I did. He then challenged me to a dare: to go out to a nearby bush or forest and walk around naked. As proof he wanted me to take a picture of it. I hesitated for a while but ultimately agreed on doing it as it seemed really exciting to me to actually act out the idea that was planted in my brain. And so the next time I was cycling home from school I stopped on a nearby patch of trees&bushes and walked around with my phone in my hand and camera turned on for a while until I worked up the courage to drop my pants and underpants and just waddle around for about 30 seconds. I quickly pulled my pants back up because I was scared of getting caught. Apparently I did know already that what I was doing was not something that was allowed or normal or something you should speak about to your parents. Looking back that last statement couldn't be more untrue. I wish I'd told my parents these naked things I was doing back then before things escalated. If you are 11, 12, 13, 14, 15, 16 or 17 years old and are in a similar situation right now, please tell your parents or counselor. That is the only way your situation can be saved. Otherwise It's guaranteed to spiral out of control and fuck with your mind for a long time. I'm planning on writing out everything eventually, but for now I've been writing for about an hour and I'll complete it later. I'm posting this now so it's done in my head. Anyways, to close off the story, I Cycled back home uploaded the video to David and received a lot of praise from him about my body but also criticism that I didn't dare to go fully unclothed. I was told that if I were to do it properly I should fully undress while filming and walk around naked for at least a full minute. That's what a true nudist does he said. I told him I was scared of getting caught and he told me that: Well if you are covered by the leaves of the forest and bushes, no-one is going to see you anyways right? I didn't find a good counterargument to that and so next time around I did exactly that. I went fully nude for a full minute, whilst recording myself. I sent the video over to him and he was indeed very pleased. The crazy thing was, I actually felt really amazing getting the compliments and the rush of being naked with a chance of being caught got stuck in my brain. Little did I know, this was not even 0.1% of what was about to happen in the coming 10 years. tbc.