I keep fighting these thoughts in my head that serve no other purpose than to hurt me. Thoughts that my boyfriend might be cheating (I know he's not), thoughts that I'm not good enough, even vague thoughts that I should have committed scuicide when I had the chance. It's exhausting and I just bring others down with me when I feel this way. It's why I don't have any friends. I tried to get help but it's expensive. I don't know what to do. At least It's raining outside.