I don't know where to start. I don't even know what I really feel anymore cause it seems like I'm empty. I feel empty. The funny thing is I know what to do to make myself feel better. I just have to come home. Not on our house but in His. I tried to pray i really did, but maybe my attempt to try isn't enough. I want to talk to God about all my doubts, my fears, my problems and all that stuff but whenever I tried doing that, I always stop. Because I feel like I am not worth it that I say sorry to Him all the time but then the next day I will still do the same mistake. I feel like He will never accept me anymore. Maybe He thinks that I just pray because I want something from which is somehow true and that makes me feel worthless more. I don't want this feeling. I want to come home, in His home. I want God's love but I feel like I do not deserve it.