Why do I care what you posted? Why do I care if I give you a view or not? What will it show? Why do I worry if someone else might gain your attention? Why does it matter if your attention is not on me? Why do I feel the need to compete for anything? Why do I continue to check on you? Why do I check on you in the first place? Why do I care what you think of me, if clearly you don't care what I think of you? Why do I let myself down? Why do I continue to think of you even after I have accepted you will never message me again? Why do I continously regain hope against my own logic? Why do I still believe you're a honest and humble person? Why do I keep twisting the narrative and keep giving you the benefit of the doubt? Why can't I just live my life like normal without you? Why can't I let go? Why do I keep waiting? Why do I keep counting down the days? Why am I setting myself up for heartbreak? Why do I keep seeking answers that I want to hear? Why are you like this? Why can't I just say fuck it, it's not worth the stress, and move on? Why am I pushing these red flags to the side? Why am I at a battle without myself when the choice is easy? Why do I keep going back and forth? Why do I keep hoping? Why can't I accept this is life and it's okay? Why can't I make it easier on myself and say screw it? Why do I keep thinking of everything he's told me? Why do I keep thinking?