I wanna fade, i wanna die, but i dont want it to hurt, im scared ill survive if i cut my wrists. I wish i could jump off a building, but where will i find a building, i wish i could just die with injected poison, but where will i get that?. I would agree to exchange my life with a spirit or something if i can, definitely. Actually my life is nice i dont have divorced parents, i am maybe not an orphan but atleast i have a good life if i was, i could save my allowance to buy my self stuffs i want, i want to end this loop. Its not like i am tired of the same thing everyday, its more like i dont wanna continye anymore, i hate it that i want to fade, i compare myself to others who are worse in situation but still continues to live, i hate the fact that even if i was this blessed im tired, its not like im not contented with what i have, i actually am happy to be born in this fam situation, i just dont want to anymore, its tiring.