I‘m a 23 year old girl and I‘ve been in love with my female best friend for years (from 13 to 20 it was really bad) I am bisexual and I have been in a very happy relationship with a boy for over a year now. I love him so much and I would never cheat on him... but I still can‘t stop thinking about her and I feel very guilty about it. I keep thinking I‘m missing out on something. I don’t wanna wake up when I‘m 50 and realize I rather would have spent my life with a woman or at least at some point have had a relationship with a woman. I really don’t know what to do about this... I really wish I wasn’t in love with her.