I am a woman. When I was younger I used to go to gay clubs when I was drunk and loved kissing women. A few times I went back to hotel rooms with women and had a lot of fun, but alcohol was always involved. I have never been confident enough to be with a woman sober. I have been with many men both sober and not and I am now married to a man I love very much. I can't help remembering those crazy drunken times I was with women and imagining I could relive those experiences again. I feel that if I say this to my husband he will want to be with other women but I would feel very jelous if this happened. I don't know how to consolidate my desire to sleep with women with my desire to remain faithful to my husband and him to me. Any advice?