My sister read me fairy tales and rhymes when I was a kid. She practically raised me, coming to all of my shows and games. She has always helped me get ready for dances and such. She is one of the best things about my life and I owe so much to her.
But now our relationship is straining. I can see that she is now tired of me.
I know it is my fault. I am too different from our family. I am too brash and too bold. I speak my mind and I have been known to make brash decisions. No matter what I do, I lose faith in myself. I am tired of being an outsider, a misfit, or a black sheep of the family. I can see that it is putting a burden on her.
I don't know how I can make myself happy. I just don't feel happy anymore.
Today, I got into a fight with my sister and I don't know what overcame me but I tried to jump out of the car. To be honest, this isn't the first time this has happened. I feel so tired of fighting that I just want it to end. What do I do?