my boyfriend of 6 months dumped me today. he said i had been really mean recently and he didn't want to see it, but his friends had told him he was in a painfully toxic relationship. if only he knew that i had relapsed into self harm and was so ashamed of it that i kept it a secret to the world. i didn't have any other way of dealing with it and i didnt want to seem vulnerable. im so sorry baby. i should've been a better girlfriend for you. you where so nice to me...i don't think ill ever be able to let you go. side note my friends had been telling me he was toxic since day 1 and i denied it, defending him without hesitation. ive been crying nonstop due to this. help me.