Boys. I'm bi with a male preference. I've like one for awhile, I think, I pushed down any feeling for him for the sake of my toxic ex best friend. He's cute and funny, and smart. Then there's this other one. A year older, cute, funny, stupid, a complete goof.Their out of my leagues.Hell everyone is.I'm not pretty, but of not uglyI'm not fat, but of not skinnyI'm not funny but I'm not not funny.Not to mention most Boys want sex in a relationship but I can't do that. Not yet, I think. I was sexually abused for 3 years, and though I've worked through alot of the trauma and I'm really good now, I still have PTSD and don't know if I could it.Hell I haven't even had a relationship, or kissed a guy. Fuck, its stressing me out. I've literally run out of tears. I just feel so alone.