Bullied for three years and then eventually got fired at work. Three months have passed and I still feel depressed sometimes. I still have dreams with them fighting and arguing each other now that I'm gone. This period is very painful as I try to recollect my pieces. The hard truth is that I am unemployed at the age of 32. This is very difficult to handle. I am constantly thinking that I should have a proper job. I took the decision to move on with my studies and complete an msc course in an effort to take advantage of the situation but what I really want is to find my niche in the workplace and find a team, any team which would act like one. The Msc course is in another country and I have decided to leave my country of fear of the smearing campaigns. I believe it is quite possible that my name might be in the blacklist among other companies, see the company I used to work had a large network of clients and I live in a small country where rumors spread fast. I am afraid that they will do anything to ruin me even after my dismissal just to prove that they were right and I was incapable and a bad employee. I am really afraid for the future and even though my plans seem to right I don't have much energy inside me anymore. Energy is essential to move on with my life and I refuse to lose time on grieving for them. I have so much to offer but I never experienced any gratification from the co-workers or managers.