I think I've hit rock bottom now and I am feeling so many emotions. I always knew i would get to this point but i didn’t think it would be this bad. It feels like there's a whole in my chest. Trust me, I know that I am kind of a strong person. I have known that for years because after all those nights i almost overdosed i didn't and i'm still here and after all those nights i only gave in once.i have a lot of questions that i don’t know who to ask. How did I get to this point? What did I do wrong? Why am I the way I am? I don’t feel mentally at home, I never do. This is not what people explain when they explain how life is. It’s not supposed to be like this. Sometimes I think what's the point in living if I cannot be happy, if I don't allow myself to be happy.