Im killing myself on the 25th of november. That way I don't ruin christmas for my family. It's not close to my parents or siblings birthdays. And it gives me some time to actually start living. Ive got enough money to survive til that day. Ill be 25 this year. And I have nothing to show for. I am a disappointment and a burden to my family. I want them to be rid of me. I have life insurance. They can cover their debts with that. I can help more by dying. I am too weak. This world was not meant for me. Before I die I want to lose my virginity. Buy some flowers and do something embarassing. I hope I can accomplish it. Everybody... Make the right decisions. For me it's too late... If you're young enjoy and think about the future. Build something for yourself and for your loved one.