Im killing myself on the 25th of november. That way I don't ruin christmas for my family. It's not close to my parents or siblings birthdays. And it gives me some time to actually start living. Ive got enough money to survive til that day. Ill be 25 this year. And I have nothing to show for. I am a disappointment and a burden to my family. I want them to be rid of me. I have life insurance. They can cover their debts with that. I can help more by dying. I am too weak. This world was not meant for me. Before I die I want to lose my virginity. Buy some flowers and do something embarassing. I hope I can accomplish it. Everybody... Make the right decisions. For me it's too late... If you're young enjoy and think about the future. Build something for yourself and for your loved one.
I don't know what's going on. Please don't. You are weak, but you will get stronger. You aren't a burden to your family, you are a blessing. I pray that you will get better, please. I hope you will get better soon. Please, don't do it. My friends had gotten into a car crash because a sixteen year old was texting. Both of them had to be in the hospital for 2 weeks. One of them ended up being in a wheelchair for a while and the other died. We all are in middle school and it hurt our Hearst. We all needed a break to think and be emotional. We all go through tough times. Please be patient with your life. ♥♥♥♥♥♥ love to you.
Another thing, right now, you are changing people's lives. You don't even know it. I don't know how but you ARE. You are a very beautiful person and deserve to live a long, happy, fulfilling life. I have no right to be meddling in your business or even trying to change your decision. But what I want you to know is this; I love you. No, not in a relationship way, but I love you as a person. Not as a person who hasn't thought of trying to kill oneself, but rather as a person who respects your life. You are not a failure, you are not a burden, you are a human being like me, your friends, your family, and everyone who cares about you. I know that I have no power in changing your opinion, but I hope to put this into your mind. We love you. Please don't die. ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
Live for me please. My parents gave me away for being autistic & disabled. I endured yrs of torture. I’ve been homeless.
I also have nothing. I mainly sleep in cheap dives. I have about $100. You are not alone. But have you ever almost died? I have. A disease is so painful. It feels like knives are stabbed into me.
I’ve faded away. I’ve had doctors say they don’t know how I’m alive.
I tried to kill myself at 9. Your body panicks & fights to live. I woke up barely alive. I realized you only live once. It seems like I blinked & now I’m in my 50’s.
The sadness never stops for me. But a therapist put me on meds that keeps it from over whelming me. Trust me; your parents don’t want the $. If they do then don’t leave it to them.
Look for jobs at grocery stores; drive thrus; etc. Please find a way to stay here. This life is hard. But you can do it. I almost died recently. Death is just death. Life is short. Find little ways to be happy.
I’ve been lying in the floor throwing up for days. This may be it. I don’t have $ or insurance for the hospital. I’d need about $20,000 due to my severe disease. I don’t even have a car to make.
I’m lying in the floor forcing myself to drink water & eat. It’s my only hope. I literally have shit my pants. Diareah. Bad for end stage renal. I need to live. I will not give up.
I’m Christian. But I find joy. I’m watch knocked up. I’ll look at some “legal” nude pics since my ex is too sick for sex. I usually go 14 days before I talk to my kids. I can’t afford to live by them. I have about $100.
My depression tells me to give up. I refuse. I fight every day to live. Whenever I think of a way I make it hard on myself to pull it off if I ever give up.
This may be it for me. I’m so weak. But I’m going to fight. This life seems so long; but it’s really so short.
Even on good days I can barely walk. My hands spasm & wont work. My body has weird spasms. I can only pick up about 5 lbs. I fall down a lot. I’ve fallen in the parking lot. Crawled pulling my buggy. Crawled in my car & passed out. Driving home I had drive slow & pull over a lot. My life is very rough. But I fight the depression.
And what am I doing as I think I might die if I let my eyes close? I’m telling you I love you.
Sex. My ex is too sick. Who would want me now? So I look at legal nude pics & solve my own issue.
I watch comedies; listen to happy music. Go get a therapist & some meds. Fight for me. I love you.
You’re selfless, you care a lot for those who loves you, but dying won’t help for a number of reasons.
most of all they’d still be in debt, every life insurance has the suicide clause. If they prove you killed yourself you’d be dying for nothing.
The best thing you could do for your loved ones but most importantly for yourself is that you push through, it’s very hard and very demotivating most of the time, but it is a real solution, a courageous one, to help them out pay their debts and not break their hearts over your loss.
you seem like someone who can make a plan and stick to it, but this plan won’t work, you need a better one.
I know you feel fed up, so am I and everyone else here, we kept to ourselves long enough to end up on this site right here, we’ve been through so much shit it isn’t even fair cause we just wanted a little love back and never asked for too much.
I can’t guarantee that things will get much better, but I know they won’t get any worse if you just change your mind. You are not alone and nothing is wrong with you, you are not a loser, and you don’t deserve any of this.
I know you want to live, carefree, with no stress, no rejection, but if it isn’t for these shitty things we wouldn’t know what’s a good thing feels like when we see it.
Just stick around a little longer, out of curiosity at least!
please don’t. You’re only 25. You still have so much in life that you haven’t done yet! So much you need to do. I know shit gets hard, but you can’t give up yet. This is your life. Please, please do not give up. You were put on this earth for a reason. You have the power to make your life the way you’ve always wanted it to be. I’m begging you, there is still so much out there for you. Don’t give up.