We knew each other for 5 years, we are close, he is my bestie, he is my churchmate, but we when 2021 came we talked everyday, so its been 2 months. I know our feelings are mutual but none of us wants to admit, my reason for not taking the first move is because I am afraid that our friendship will be put on end. I am confused, very confuse, I don't know what to do, I cant afford to lose him in one mistake of decision. God knows how much I care for him and I am willing to take risk to be with him, if God will give us chance, he will be my first boyfriend. But now he is trying to distance himself because our Pastor knew that we are talking and romantic relationships are not allowed in our church, aside from that I can't say my feelings to him. :((( what should I do?