I feel the harder I try and the more I keep taken like 10 steps ahead to get knocked 20 steps back. Everything seems to be going wrong no matter how hard I try to keep things going smoothly by being responsible and and acting responsibly too. I am kind and do for others often times before thinking of myself. But it seems like my life has a dark cloud over it and I am cursed. I just wish I can catch a break and not have to worry about things so much it’s really taking a toll on me. I even get sick a lot and don’t even feel like eating sometimes too. I talk it out and it still does not help. I wish that God would have some mercy on me and just stop kicking my ass so much when I’m trying as hard as I can. Please pray that things will get better for me and whoever reads this I will pray for you all too.