I made a decision that I regret and I just can't let it go. It's been over a year and a normal person would have forgotten by now but I'm too caring for that. There was this stray cat that would literally run through the parking lot near my job now and then. For the first few months I only caught glimpses of her, like usual. But one day she decided to spend the entire afternoon right outside the door. I pet her, fed her cat food that I bought for her, and I REALLY wanted to take her home. But I live with my family and I had an appointment to see a car for sale right after work. So I assumed I could adopt her when she came back for more food. I never saw her again and every time I see something related to a stray animal, my heart breaks a little. I noticed someone that works in the same plaza still leaves out bowls of kibble, so it's possible that I didn't kill her. How do I let this go like a "normal" person????