I'm a 16 year old (f) and I am really bothered by something that happened 5 years ago. I was at my cousin's house. He is 4 years older than me. He asked me if I wanted to play a game with him. I told him yes. He said that we had to play the game in his bedroom with the door closed and we had to be quiet. I followed him into his bedroom and he closed the door. He told me that he wanted to see me naked. He said it would be okay because he would let me see him naked too. I was kind of curious as to what he would look like because I had never seen a naked boy before so I said yes as long as he went first. So he took off his clothes and showed me his penis. It was fat and hard. He told me that because he was naked that I had to be naked too. I was scared and I told him that I didn't want to play anymore but he told me that if I didn't continue that he was going to tell my mom that I touched his penis. I was scared so I took off my clothes. When I was naked my cousin touched me between my legs. He tried to put a finger inside me but I told him to stop because it hurt. He told me that it was because I was dry and so he kneeled in front of me and started licking me. I told him to stop because I was scared and I was worried that we were going to get caught. He told me that it was okay because his parents never went to his bedroom and that as long as we were quiet we would be okay. Then he told me to lay down on the carpet. I didn't want to but I was scared so I did. Then he layed down on top of me and he pushed his penis into me. He didn't actually go in but he was rubbing his penis on me until he cummed. Then he took some of the cum from on my crotch and belly on his fingers and stuck them in my mouth. I didn't like the taste and I was mad that he did that but I stayed quiet. He told me that I had to keep it a secret or I would get in trouble and they would take me away from my mom. After that day he did the same tjing to me a bunch more times when I had to stay at his house after school. I just can't stop thinking about it. It went on like that for almost a year. I never told anyone. Now he is going to be getting married in a couple of weeks. I think I should tell his girlfriend about what he did to me. I would want to know if the guy I was going to marry did stuff like that. I just can't stop thinking about it. I know that I should tell his girlfriend but I don't know hoe I should do it.