There is this guy... I see him every day and he is so amazing. I don't even think he knows he is. Hes so humble and kind and has such a beautiful soul. I don't know why i have such strong feelings for him and i don't know why i feel like i can trust him with everything... Except this. it sucks so much. I hate how happy he makes me every day i see him, I cant help but smile. It sucks even more that Im married and can't do anything about it. I feel so torn but I know that i will never leave my husband and i am stuck in this perpetual loop of pretend. Gah i hate your stupidly delightful face.