I’ve always been so cheerful and happy, but lately I’ve changed a lot. Everyone has ups and downs, but as a kid I think I put a rule to myself that I’ll always be happy, so when I face something that disappoints me or saddens me now, I feel anxious, breathless and I suffer a sharp headache after I overthink it. I’ve thought it out that recently I’ve always been playing the role of the victim. I really don’t want that. I’m trying hard to appreciate everything that I have, but It’s still there. I want to be my old self who appreciates a hot tea in the morning and feel blessed. I really want to change.