I want to go back home because this isn’t the normal environment I am in. Its chaotic messy and spontaneous but if I go back it would only decrease my mental health. And on-top of that I’ll be back on medication that I am not even supposed to take. I love my boyfriend and all its just Im sick in a mood and these jokes he makes arent helping me. I am in pain in my lower area and all he does is try to force sexual interactions. I wish I wish these things would change or at least he would get me some type of medication or at LEAST cranberry juice instead of constant soda and concentrated juice sugar water. I know these things are small and will most likely disappear and be fixed but its impacting my choice on staying with him or going back to my abusive household.