Life can be so harsh and cruel at times. From childhood, we are taught that God has created us, he is our owner and will be there by our side, through thick and thin. But life doesn't work that way, neither does the concept of God( if he truly exists). There have been situations where I was totally helpless and depressed, but never got a helping hand. Now people might say, I shouldn't blame God, he loves us all. But I feel that there is a slight selective preference in his love. There are people who are so lucky and have almost everything in life. The biggest concern in their life is the absence of their favourite dress in a mall. But for people like us, every day brings a heap of troubles. My life has never been easy. My mom and dad keep on fighting most of the times, they don't like each other's company. My dad insults her and makes her feel low, due to which she has lost her self-worth totally. She stays depressed and spends the day mainly scrolling her social media feed. Since she is a housewife, leaving my dad and moving out was never an option. She did not consider divorcing him and asking for maintenance money, due to various excuses. Now every negativity has come upon me. Dad doesn't behave with her like a friend, she wishes to have a person with whom she can share everything. I can feel that she is falling into depression. I try making her understand, to counsel her, but in vain. What do I do? I don't even earn, that I could afford a doctor for her. Dad is ignorant and doesn't believe in mental issues. For him, every wrong lies in my mom, he's the perfect husband one can ever have. Since the last two months, she is having sleep issues. Even after consuming high power sleep pills, she is unable to fall asleep. This is worrying me a lot. But I don't have a dad to support me and stay beside me. In short, my family life is totally messed up. I always wanted to pursue my higher education abroad, travelling to different places, meeting new people. But now it seems, this shall remain a dream. How do I leave my mom back at home? She has clearly told me that if I leave, there are good chances she might not be able to cope up with the loneliness. What do I do? There is literally NOTHING I can do to improve her situation. But killing my dreams seems so suffocating. What about my life and aspirations? Don't they have importance? I don't know what the future holds for me. I can only pray to "God" and hope for the best.