Got home from work a few hours ago. Work has been okay lately. Delivering for UPS is a strange job. Some stress with traffic and people. I'm always on the move, no time to dwell. Plus I choose not to be upset over small stuff that really doesn't matter. Go ahead crazy driver. It can be exhausting though. There is just so much to deliver. 160 stops. A drop in the bucket compared to the mass of delivery happening. I barely remember it now. It's all the same, find location, deliver package, repeat. They pay me a crazy amount of money with benefits to do it, so there's that. Like most days been listening to the radio I bring with me. Talk radio with NPR news. Some shit about Republican senators not going to impeach Trump. Covid vaccines. Gamestop stock. Listening while I'm delivering an Amazon package. None of that news is surprising. None of that stuff matters much. I mean, the government has been failing to address the people for decades. Crony capitalism has been in charge for quite awhile now. It's the reason people latched onto Trump or Qanon or Tea Party or any of that to begin with. There's the vague discontent, the unconscious knowledge you are a unit of production and consumption. I don't blame those believers of that crazy shit for trying to find a purpose, thinking they know some secret knowledge that makes them special. Covid is crazy shit. 4k dead from it in the U.S. yesterday. Questions though. Was it all strictly Covid? Not heart attack or something that gets attributed to Covid after. That is a real thing. And why is Covid still going on at this rate? Taiwan did an aggressive quarantine of infected people. They nipped it in the bud. I think a report said 6 people died of covid. All the while they kept the economy open. Why did America's economy close down? You do not quarantine a healthy person. But now, economic hardships, small businesses folding, increasing poverty, food insecurity for 10% of the population. Wtf. But everyone is scared of Covid. The new normal is to be scared then? Those small investors tried to fuck over hedge funds with the Gamestop and other stocks. But the trading apps they used now have stopped allowing to buy theses stocks. The reason is the app has to put up capital, and is taking loans to do so, hence... blah blah blah. Hedge funds will win in the long run. Not a surprise, fuck the little guy right? Picked up a chicken parmesan grinder on my way home. I'm tired, not gonna cook. Got home to my fairly clean apartment. I'm never here during the work week. Pretty easy to keep clean. A few empty soda cans and water bottles on the table. Mail I don't care to look at. Maybe a cup and a half of this mornings coffee brew left to reheat later. I change out of work clothes first. I'm not gonna wear that brown uniform longer than I have to. I decide to take half a valium. Why not. No work tomorrow. Nothing going on tonight. I'm already tired. I haven't taken a valium since last Sunday. It's my drug of choice. Slows me down. In fact, I have a lot of drugs here. A bottle of vodka in the freezer. A dime bag of weed in the coffee table. I even have mushrooms and acid around. I don't use them though. I just have them. Eat half my grinder as I listen to a podcast. Bill Burr Podcast. A pretty good comedian. His humor is the type that tells the truth, but in a funny way. He does admit he's an idiot at some things. On the couch, valium and food has me mouth breathing. Shit I'm tired. I saw something once that made me think that I should be doing more. Something like, you're not tired, you're uninspired, that's why you are not living life to it's fullest. But no... I'm tired. Take a shower. It's refreshing. Put on some clean clothes and Por Homme by Dulce and Gabana. I smell pretty good now too. Turn on the T.V. and find a movie. Morgan Freeman is helping Keanu Reeves with some water energy thing and something blows up. Okay, sure. Wondered if I should look at OKCupid or something. Look at pretty girls. I am a guy, I do like pretty girls. But then I recall that even if I try, they won't. Don't really care to do that I do want to talk though. Google search write something anonymously. And there you go. Happy to share a bit of day. There's more, there's always more. Called my mom Wednesday. She's okay. I should talk to my friend in Cali, been a few weeks. My other friend sends me a pic of someone who has had spiders lay eggs in their back. Yuck. I'm going to go out with two sisters in a few weeks. I've been a family friend for years. I can probably fuck both of individually, but that is a whole fucking mess so I won't. So just here, on a cold Friday night, and I feel alright

Got home from work a few hours ago. Work has been okay lately. Delivering for UPS is a strange job. Some stress with traffic and people. I'm always on the move, no time to dwell. Plus I choose not to be upset over small stuff that really doesn't matter. Go ahead crazy driver.It can be exhausting though. There is just so much to deliver. 160 stops. A drop in the bucket compared to the mass of delivery happening. I barely remember it now. It's all the same, find location, deliver package, repeat. They pay me a crazy amount of money with benefits to do it, so there's that.Like most days been listening to the radio I bring with me. Talk radio with NPR news. Some shit about Republican senators not going to impeach Trump. Covid vaccines. Gamestop stock. Listening while I'm delivering an Amazon package. None of that news is surprising. None of that stuff matters much. I mean, the government has been failing to address the people for decades. Crony capitalism has been in charge for quite awhile now. It's the reason people latched onto Trump or Qanon or Tea Party or any of that to begin with. There's the vague discontent, the unconscious knowledge you are a unit of production and consumption. I don't blame those believers of that crazy shit for trying to find a purpose, thinking they know some secret knowledge that makes them special.Covid is crazy shit. 4k dead from it in the U.S. yesterday. Questions though. Was it all strictly Covid? Not heart attack or something that gets attributed to Covid after. That is a real thing. And why is Covid still going on at this rate? Taiwan did an aggressive quarantine of infected people. They nipped it in the bud. I think a report said 6 people died of covid. All the while they kept the economy open. Why did America's economy close down? You do not quarantine a healthy person. But now, economic hardships, small businesses folding, increasing poverty, food insecurity for 10% of the population. Wtf. But everyone is scared of Covid. The new normal is to be scared then?Those small investors tried to fuck over hedge funds with the Gamestop and other stocks. But the trading apps they used now have stopped allowing to buy theses stocks. The reason is the app has to put up capital, and is taking loans to do so, hence... blah blah blah. Hedge funds will win in the long run. Not a surprise, fuck the little guy right?Picked up a chicken parmesan grinder on my way home. I'm tired, not gonna cook. Got home to my fairly clean apartment. I'm never here during the work week. Pretty easy to keep clean. A few empty soda cans and water bottles on the table. Mail I don't care to look at. Maybe a cup and a half of this mornings coffee brew left to reheat later.I change out of work clothes first. I'm not gonna wear that brown uniform longer than I have to. I decide to take half a valium. Why not. No work tomorrow. Nothing going on tonight. I'm already tired. I haven't taken a valium since last Sunday. It's my drug of choice. Slows me down.In fact, I have a lot of drugs here. A bottle of vodka in the freezer. A dime bag of weed in the coffee table. I even have mushrooms and acid around. I don't use them though. I just have them. Eat half my grinder as I listen to a podcast. Bill Burr Podcast. A pretty good comedian. His humor is the type that tells the truth, but in a funny way. He does admit he's an idiot at some things. On the couch, valium and food has me mouth breathing. Shit I'm tired.I saw something once that made me think  that I should be doing more. Something like, you're not tired, you're uninspired, that's why you are not living life to it's fullest. But no... I'm tired. Take a shower. It's refreshing. Put on some clean clothes and Por Homme by Dulce and Gabana. I smell pretty good now too. Turn on the T.V. and find a movie. Morgan Freeman is helping Keanu Reeves with some water energy thing and something blows up. Okay, sure. Wondered if I should look at OKCupid or something. Look at pretty girls. I am a guy, I do like pretty girls. But then I recall that even if I try, they won't. Don't really care to do thatI do want to talk though. Google search write something anonymously.And there you go. Happy to share a bit of day. There's more, there's always more. Called my mom Wednesday. She's okay. I should talk to my friend in Cali, been a few weeks. My other friend sends me a pic of someone who has had spiders lay eggs in their back. Yuck. I'm going to go out with two sisters in a few weeks. I've been a family friend for years. I can probably fuck both of individually, but that is a whole fucking mess so I won't. So just here, on a cold Friday night, and I feel alright