I just want to share about my feelings that has been bottling up. He and I are still not official. We have no label, but we are exclusive. I have not physically seen him since the lockdown had started so what we do is communicate through chats, phonecalls, videocalls, etc.
There were a couple of times when he does not reply right away and replies after hours. I just assume that he was busy at the moment. But I saw him posting stuff on facebook in the middle of the time when i first chatted and the time he replied. I just somehow overthink that he does not want to talk to me anymore. But a part of me still trusts him that he really was busy. I can’t tell him how i really feel about those kinds of situation. I always tell him that “it’s okay, don’t worry about it” as a reply whenever he apologizes.
i really want to open up about it but then maybe he might assume that I am a toxic person who only considers my own side. It lowkey hurts how he doesn’t reply for hours but he’s online. :(( typing isn’t that hard. A simple good morning or good night isn’t that hard.