I wish I can tell it out loud to the world, I wish I can tell everyone what I did. I am currently weighed down, I had sex with my fiance twice when we have not yet married. It is outrightly forbidden in Christendom, I have sinned against God, my trusted fellow Christians and my Church. I am scared telling them what I did. I plead for God's forgiveness, that he should forgive me and not leave my judgement to man.