I don't know why life comes to this end. I feel like I'm dying inside slowly and shouting inside for help. Please help me and change my life...like these lines always going in my mind and heart. I never thought I love my best friend until I got engaged. I want to tell this to my mom but recently I lost my dad so I don't have courage to say that. After my dad died my engagement is fixed suddenly and I was not clear that time. All I want is my mom happiness but I'm hurting inside and I don't have courage to say this my best friend also. When marriage date is appearing near I'm just nervous and I wish something will happen so marriage go stop.I'm not fluent in English and can't say all this to my family and friends so I'm posting here. Just one hope that something might change.