i hate that i love them yk ? a little back story he’s exposed me and everything like he told people this thing i told him not to. BUT i still get butterflies i still get excited when i see his name on my screen i get excited with what ever they do. literally both of us act like strangers when we see each other. he looks at me i look at him nothing happens. i wish i could just go up to him and hug him or at least have a fucking conversation with him without getting butterflies or stuttering or talking to quickly i want to make him go away but i get that urge to text him EVERY day after school and it sucks. i fucking hate that i search for his name in those initial tiktoks i hate that i get sad when i don’t receive the notification with his name on it. i just want to talk to him normally. and i hate that i didn’t take my chance back when he liked me. i would kill to go back to that time and not have to stalker or stutter i love everything about him and i know i can trust him at times but at times he just had this bad habit of forcing me to say things but i still love him out relationship as friends is getting toxic but i like it in a way? i don’t know what to think or that to feel anymore.