I am a 13 year old girl who has social anxiety and depression because I am overweight and other reasons. I wake up everyday wondering how the day is going to be like whether it was going to be exciting, boring or just frikin painful. I have to over think so much to the point where I am starting to be mentally tired. The worst part is that I can't cry anymore or at least not easily. It is as tho I can't feel much now or maybe its because I have felt all of this emotions so many times that I just gave up on the inside. I want to cry because I just don't feel myself. My "friends" are just running to the place of popularity which I cannot deal with because I find it typical. I have to encourage them and put on a fake smile and laugh each time they expect me to smile or laugh. Its messed up. My family isn't helping either. They mostly only bother about their work and the family business or they are just to busy with their own problems. And for myself I just cant anymore. I became so obsessed with wanting to lose weight and gaining abs and stuff like that. I am forcing myself to eat way lesser to change my appetite. People don't notice it and they really just think that it is something that just comes naturally. I REALLY HATE IT. I HATE MYSELF. I HATE EVVERYTHING. I am tired. This whole time that I have been typing I didn't even shed a single tear. That's how much I can't feel now. I used to cry so much each time I just wrote on this platform. I am that drained. I am that tired. I am so not myself anymore. Good bye all who read thisFor now at least

I am a 13 year old girl who has social anxiety and depression because I am overweight and other reasons. I wake up everyday wondering how the day is going to be like whether it was going to be exciting, boring or just frikin painful. I have to over think so much to the point where I am starting to be mentally tired. The worst part is that I can't cry anymore or at least not easily. It is as tho I can't feel much now or maybe its because I have felt all of this emotions so many times that I just gave up on the inside. I want to cry because I just don't feel myself. My "friends" are just running to the place of popularity which I cannot deal with because I find it typical. I have to encourage them and put on a fake smile and laugh each time they expect me to smile or laugh. Its messed up. My family isn't helping either. They mostly only bother about their work and the family business or they are just to busy with their own problems. And for myself I just cant anymore. I became so obsessed with wanting to lose weight and gaining abs and stuff like that. I am forcing myself to eat way lesser to change my appetite. People don't notice it and they really just think that it is something that just comes naturally. I REALLY HATE IT. I HATE MYSELF. I HATE EVVERYTHING. I am tired. This whole time that I have been typing I didn't even shed a single tear. That's how much I can't feel now. I used to cry so much each time I just wrote on this platform. I am that drained. I am that tired. I am so not myself anymore. Good bye all who read thisFor now at least 

Hey, you got alot going on and I hope you hang in there and feel better. I don't know if I can be much help, but wanted to reply to one sentence you wrote. "I have to over think so much to the point where I am starting to be mentally tired." Learning meditation or mindfulness could help you with this. Good luck.

Hey, you got alot going on and I hope you hang in there and feel better.  I don't know if I can be much help, but wanted to reply to one sentence you wrote."I have to over think so much to the point where I am starting to be mentally tired."  Learning meditation or mindfulness could help you with this.Good luck.