Conner, I love you. I don't know why I'm scared to tell you. Maybe because I'm scared you won't feel the same. It currently feels like I'm losing you but every now and then I get a sign that I'm not and that we'll get through this. I hope we do because I can't afford (mentally) to lose you. You make me very happy and I'm so glad we met when we did, even if it was during a pandemic. Being with you is like being at home and I haven't felt like that with anyone.