I hate my boyfriend. He's so manipulative, controlling and aggressive. But he is so good at reasoning out his behaviour and being the avoidant person I am I just let it to avoid any arguments or confrontations. I dont think he will change. I really wanna get out of this cause it's really a toxic relationship but it's just, where do I go? I dont want to start new with someone else. Our history is too much as well and I dont wanna go it to waste but then thats a wrong reason to stay. I guess I just dont have the guts and I dont wanna be alone again.