i love my dad but he's too ignorant to the point that he doesn't realize that everyone's hurting and suffering because of him. he's been sick for years but i think it's not an unacceptable reason for him to be ignorant and think of himself only. it fucking hurts me to see him that way. anyways, i just wanted to vent this out. ive been keeping this to myself for a while and it's driving me crazy that i just want to die. im sorry.