So yeah, I have 5 dating apps installed.
Why? Idk. Idk if i just need someone to talk to. I enjoy talking to guys randomly.
But then, when i get interested with someone from the app, they'll eventually won't contact me. When I'M enjoying our talks, they will invite to meet and go on hotel. And every time i reject the invite, i am ignored. I wont start convo with them again, cuz i know they'll think they can get into me. So I just let it the way it be. No more contact.
I am almost 3 yrs single and in those 3 yrs, I am in different dating apps. I even meet some of them. I get to know different guys. But believe me, I didn't have any bf in 3yrs. I don't believe that someone will get serious in me just meeting me in the app. I am.afraid to entertain my feelings when I'm starting to like a guy. Because I am afraid of rejection.
I can still hear what my ex told me when we broke up. "I don't love you any more. It's been a while. I feel guilty saying I love you without feeling LOVE any more" 💔
For me, I can easily be rejected by the guys i met in app. Since the person who new me for almost a decade left me. (My ex. We were a couple for 2 yrs only)
Still, here I am, still talking to diff guys who will message me.