Never thought I'd be doing this anonymously in a website thinking it's you, but I really don't see it any other way. We've been through so much together, so many ups and downs that tbh, I can't even count. It's gotten so toxic that the good things don't even feel worth it anymore. We've known each other for so long that I can't even tell when we got so close that it started being a liability. I've tried keeping myself in your shoes and I still can't understand why being so negative, and so dramatic interests you over this friendship. Making me repeat the same things a million times, asking me to stop being rude when I was only reacting to what you threw at me, playing victim, coming up with so many ways just so you can start a fight and pretend to be hurt, not appreciating what we have and being jealous of all my happiness that isn't related to you in any way... There's so much I can go on and on about but I don't see how whining about it gives me a solution. Telling me you love me and I'm your priority just so you can get away with whatever stunt you pulled and expecting me to forgive you for anything and everything.. how did we even come to this? I've tried a million times to change how I look at things and everytime I try there's you again bringing up the same old things and picking fights over the tiniest of stuff. There's so many times I've forgived you even though you dint deserve it just because I freaking love you and we've had each other's backs for so long that I can't seem to let go. There's no one I can talk to cause it looks like you're a bad person and I don't want them to think that. But how do I get the help I need without talking about it?We're on the verge of being done guys, and if there's anything I know ,bestfriend breakups hurt as much as relationship breakups, or even more at times. I just don't know why I keep tolerating this person that affects my moods so bad. I've tried opening up to the person and explained my emotions so many times, kept repeating the same things again and again everytime she pulls something, hoping she'll understand and change atleast to be a better person...but it just goes on for 2 days or a week max, until she tries picking up fights again.. I mean if your days are going perfectly okay and one person is all it takes to ruin a thousand memories.. is it worth it?