I love you.
i shouldn’t but I do.
you helped me get through so much and you have no idea. And you will never. I shouldn’t look at how your hair falls out of your braid when we hang out or how your smile dips down on the left side but I do. I shouldn’t lie in bed at night imagining kissing your lips but I do.
You are my best friend and I am so glad for that. We meet up all the time and each time I hear you sing my heart melts all over again. The way you poke fun at me or the way you laugh at my terrible choice in books.
i lay awake wishing I could die but then I pictured your face with your brown waves falling over your too bright cheeks and dipping smile I couldn’t bring myself to put the bullet in my head. I couldn’t bring myself to do anything except write this letter.
there something inherently romantic about letters I think. The way you spend each moment writing out your feelings just to hope another person feels similar. I know you don’t feel the same but I accept that.
Much love, Bella