Holaaaa!! I need your help dear strangers mmh. So I'm from somewhere in S.E.A. and damn dear stranger I have a big problem. Ever since I was a child I had always wish to my Papa to arrange a arrange marriage for me. Fast forward, two years ago dear stranger I met this boy in a game and we became close fellas, our days cant be completed without chatting with each other in discord. Then after a year, we became a couple. A secret one, dear stranger you may ask why, the answer is because of my Mama and Papa, such strict ones. A week ago, dear stranger, we had a huge fight and ended up cooling off our relationship, I agreed because I trust him, that he will not use this time to look for a girl who will replace me. I was sad this whole week, you know I just thought what was the point of doing things? Then my parents freaking misunderstand me wtf, they thought me having no arranged husband is the reason why I'm freaking sad. Like wtf 😭. Yesterday my mom said someone will come over and eat dinner with us, of course, it would be too embarrassing for people to see me go waste. And guess what freaking dear stranger. It was a discussion about that fucking wedding, wtf. And guess what, that boy that my parents arranged me to is a close pal, we grew up with each other in a military base, yes dear stranger, our fathers are both active in the military. So I tried to pretend that I'm interested and at the same time I feel sad and guilty because I can see with that pal's smile that you know, he thinks it's all true, that dream come true. But at the same time, I thought that I just betrayed my boyfriend (probable ex) DAMN I CAN'T THINK PROPERLY I TRIED REACHING MY FRIENDS DAMN THEY NEVER CARE THEY JUST SEEN ZONE ALL MY CHATS FUCK! SO HERE I AM TRYING TL BE FUCKING CALM AND ASK FOR YOUR THOUGHTS, WHAY SHOULD I FUCKING DO?!!!!!!!