I'm not that scared of death. Once I die, I probably won't care about my legacy or my last word because I am in fact dead. What happens after you die? I don't know, maybe I won't know I ever existed in the first place.
I've been depressed and I've been leaving my house at times around 3AM to 4AM and walking outside aimlessly. When I do this I have the thought of being killed stuffed in the back of my head. I don't care. I'll probably resist it due to instinct but I'm curious about death and want to welcome it too.