I really have no desire or energy to stay on this journey. I hate the way my mind thinks - it's so painful to be alive and hear my own thoughts. I feel nothing but sadness, life has been underwhelming and overwhelming in the least satisfying ways. Is there really no painless way to die? Please help me to kill myself. Any help would be appreciated. and I'm 100% serious.. no lectures about the people left behind please. No lectures about how important, unique or special I am and all that.