I'm failing school. My BFF is changing. I'm ruining my parents, my family. . . would my family's life be better if i wasn't here? I don't have suicidal thoughts. just wondering lol. I don't wanna grow up. I'm scared to change. I don't wan't my family to die. I don't wanna die. My grandma died. The fact that I can't call her right now is a DEEP DARK HOLE.