It's someone to fight with? Or someone to drop you guard and relax with? What is a friend to you? Is there a difference between an enemy and friend for you or they are the same? You literally had every you wanted served on a silver plater. And yet you've destroyed it all. This happen multiples times, where you had everything. EVERYTHING. And when you have it, you don't take it, you destroy it. To work and trying to have it back later on. That vicious circle.Sure, when someone doesn't the pattern he fall for it. But after like a dozen time you see someone doing that, why you would want to hang out with them, when you know they are making happy only to make mad right after. That you know once things will be nice and things on "High" they gonna explode the whole thing.You aren't steady, you love to live in that whole extreme range of emotions. I'm sorry to say this, but it's no wonder you were abused. Cause having this on my daily basis? Yes I would abuse you too, probably hit you and do bad things to you.There is just SO MUCH someone can take.