I want to kill myself that’s all. Life is so painful and I cannot bear it any longer. Life seems so futile. I’m so sad everyday and have no energy to do anything. Everyday is spent wasting away in my room. I’m awkward and hate socializing and as a result, I have no friends. I have no one to turn to or talk to. I cry so much. I’m so alone. There must be something wrong with me to be having these thoughts. But I can’t tell anyone. I’m not good with people worrying about me. I don’t think this pain will ever stop. It’s only gotten worse over the years and I don’t expect that to stop either. If you read up until this point thanks. As your reward I’ll recommend you a very depressing manga. It’s called Aku No Hana. Read it at your own risk.