Hi, my code name is Agent 13. I like the name agent 13 as a name for people to address me by. I like pretending I am an Agent sometimes. And 13 is my favorite number. Lately, I've been getting this feeling. This feeling that makes me super sad and I hate myself. I feel like no one likes me. I've started to think no one would care if I died. I try to push these thoughts away but they are always there. I try to help myself but I dont know how. I dont want to tell anyone to their face or through a letter. I dont want pity. I dont know if I'm depressed and/or suicidal. Please let me know.