Well like a bunch of people I have depression, as most people know it. The point is it's hard to get help anywhere it feels like they're wasting their time on me and the same goes for everyone. I can't seem to tell anyone that I'm depressed so I just try to hide it as much as I can. I'm considered as someone funny and happy when I'm not. It's nice to see I can finally explain what's happening to a stranger who is willing to read my post. Thank you for listening