No one knows what it’s like to live inside my head. I don’t understand anything. I feel like shit. One step forward feels like made up progress. And then I jump three steps back. I was never quite there anyway. There’s always something wrong. Even the good things are bad. I don’t want to be this person anymore. It’s torture and I can’t live like this. I can’t even survive like this.
Re: Depression and un diagnosed mental illnesses
I'm going through the same thing. I won't say I understand how you feel, but what I will say is you're not alone.
I have the same feeling, being ashamed of myself. Regretting to be born.
Do not give up. I almost gave up once and realised that things can be better. I can make things better. There will be one day when people will know your true worth. Work hard for that day. Even if you're lonely like me, work hard in silence. Like my mom used to say when I was a kid, if you struggle today, you can enjoy tomorrow, and vice versa.