I get that most people really tend to get lost in thought during the night. That’s when we’re alone and get the feeling well forever be alone. I tend to use that to think like most would but I fear it’s being me further down into the abyss people can call depression. I have had a few thoughts of death. Suicide isn’t an option for me. Though I might think of it and though times can be difficult for me, I could never do such a thing. I’ve seen what it does to people and I have too many people I’d have to leave behind wounded, also a son who looks up to me. My life isn’t where I want it to be whatsoever and I believe that to be a major reason I’m as lost as I am. I guess you can just say I’m tired of being tired. I’m tired of feeling this way. I want to be happy. I want to live my like as full as the universe will let me. Depression has me chained to the ground and all I want to do is fly.