Hello. I have no idea how I ended up here...it was totally random but it seems like a good place to start and just talk about things...I suffer from depression and let me tell you, it's not easy at all. I battle with it on a daily basis and days like today is the worst of them. It eats you up from the inside out, a cloud of hopelessness surrounds you and right now it feels like I'm sinking in darkness and I'll never get out of it. What makes it worst is that my family doesn't understand..well at least the family I still have left. My older sister and I don't get along, my older brother was murdered, my father is a verbally/emotionally abusive bastard and mum, well my mum doesn't quite understand how painful it is to go through what I go through all the time. The things that once interested me doesn't anymore and it's so frustrating when some people know what you are going through but they laugh it off saying 'it's just a phase' or 'stop being so dramatic' and the best one yet 'you choose to be depressed. Yeah that's what I've been told. But who in their right mind would want to feel like this? Absolutely no one. It sucks because I have no one to talk to, no one who understands.