I don’t want to give up on my loved ones, my passions, things that make me happy but i want my misery to end. I don’t have the power to turn things around no matter how simple it actually is. I feel trapped and utterly hopeless. 20 something years of the same bullshit and the person who means the most to me is the source of this. She never ever realizes, for a second, the damage she inflicts on me. I don’t have the courage to end my life but i wish i be dead by tonorrow. Peacefully drift off and never wake up again..