Feeling ANGRY!!! I’m just not Okay.....I’m not Okay with what you did to our family, all those years ago it still affects me today because you made serious promises recently to our kids and you broke them!!!! I’m not Okay with how you treated Me or our Kids. I’m not Okay with the fact that you treated us like garbage, ignored us completely for years like we didn’t matter or exist to you, you abandoned me with 3 kids to raise on my own while you ran off to party and sleep around with your whores!! I raised our kids on my own. I remember calling you to beg for money to buy diapers and you told me to go fuck myself and wouldn’t send me a dime.....I stayed home and I sacrificed to raise our kids. I worked 2 sometimes 3 jobs. I kept a roof over our heads. I was the one playing Mommy and Daddy while you were nowhere around. You came around to visit maybe once a year for the last 19 years.....if they were lucky they would see you on a holiday or sometime during summer vacation. You remarried and I found out later that your wife wasn’t really a “kid person” and liked to party too.....she admitted to me to being part of the reason why you never came to see them. You came back into our lives after my father died making empty promises to be a Dad finally to our kids.....that did not last long and it was back to partying, women, liquor and booze......you broke ALL of our hearts when you could not make that happen and be a father. Now you over there playin Daddy to some other bitches children. You left your own wife to be with another woman who has kids and you had a child with her. You are such a piece of shit!!! You play Daddy to those kids but could never be a father to your own that needed you all their life??? Your own 16 year old son text messages you after almost a year of not talking to you and your response to him was “Why are you messaging me?” You fucking asshole!!!! You never deserved to have him in your life. You don’t deserve to have these beautiful children and you never deserved to have me. I was always worth it, even though you made me feel unworthy of love. You were the lie I had to battle with, to come to terms with. You were the lie that I fought with in my mind that told me I wasn’t good enough to be loved......You left me at 23 years of age and 3 children with no money and homeless to fend for myself. Now almost 19 years later, here I am a strong independent career woman and making it on her own with one kid in college and two more I’m raising. I’m SO angry with you!!!! You lied to me. You made me believe I wasn’t worth it. You are a deceiver and the truth is......YOU were NEVER WORTH IT!!!!! Here I am like the Phoenix rising up to my Power and I look at you and I SEE you finally!!! You are not as strong as I remember you once to be......You are a tiny, weak, pathetic, rotten, poor excuse for anything but a man!!! I am now raising 2 strong boys to become men one day and on my own right now and I don’t need YOU anymore!!! These boys will be men and they are nothing like you. One day they will have families of their own and wife’s and I’ve taught them to love ❤️ with all their heart!! They will be good fathers and husbands!!! Nothing like you!!! So thank you for everything you gave our boys which was a lesson in what NOT to be!! You did them a great service by leaving. Maybe blessings come in disguise because you turned out to be a real piece of crap. I’m glad you’re someone else’s problem and no longer mine!! Lesson here is don’t ever make a promise to a Mama that you don’t intend to keep. You promised to be a Dad to your kids and you walked away again and it almost crushed our kids. Good thing they’re resilient and they learn to wipe their tears away. I made sure of that.