I did this to myself. I caused this pain. I created this void. And now I am too old to be fixed. Too old to be seen. My depression is no longer considered tragic. I know I'm not necessarily old at 30 but as a woman I know that my worth is at an all time low. It will continue to decrease. With time, I will become a nuisance and a burden to those who have the misfortune of knowing me. I have never asked for help and no I pay a price that is far too high.