I first heard this male voice, when I was about 5 years old. This particular time I was most scared from someone that was doing bad things to me, I wanted to hide so he wouldn't find me, but found myself frozen . I heard a male voice tell me "don't be scared, I'm here to help you". I couldn't see anyone, but I could hear him up towards the ceiling somewhere. He referred himself as my friend and spoke in Spanish language. He told me to hide in this place in the laundry room that had a closet and a entrance at the top that lead to (now that I know) the attic. I got up there, and hid as he told me. I remember, some kind of material not sure if its brownish or pink but it made my body itch real bad. It became my safe hiding place, at least for a while. unfortunately the bad man would always find a time to get me. Always did. I had to come down sometime. The voice became my friend and spoke to me a lot, He would tell me were to hide, and all the places he hid me, I was never found by the bad man. I felt safe with him, so I listened to him. He would always talk to me when I was alone, or scared. He came on and off, for as long as I can remember. As I got older, He came around less than he use to but he always came. I was 10 when I first seen his shadow, he spoke to me one day that I was in my room punished by mother, She sent me with no dinner for the night. I was so hungry, crying on my bed and I heard him call to me. He told me, to get a blank paper and draw any food I wanted to eat. So I drew a pizza, he told me to cut it and i did, I remember i had drawn a small pizza size of a adult hand. He told me close your eyes and eat it, I did. I felt the taste of it in my mouth, As if I was really eating it. I ate it and felt satisfied. He told me when ever I got hungry to draw what I wanted to eat and eat it with my eyes closed. ( I did it a few times with ice-cream, banana and candy) I seen him for the first time that day, He was in the corner of the room, up in the ceiling. Only a blackish fading shadow. As is it was like a cloud, with movement. It didn't scare me because, I knew he wasn't bad, he was my friend. I never told anyone, and grew up with this voice/shadow friend. He never, told me to do anything bad. When I was about, 17-18 I was going through a lot of issues with mom, She was heavy into church and forced me to go even when I was sick or not feeling well. I would work at a donut shop and felt tired so I would wanna stay home. She always made my life so hard if I didn't go with her to church, I felt depressed and tired of the horrible relationship we had. She never understood me and just made me feel I was nothing. I felt alone and tired of everything and cried so hard this one Sunday, we got into a huge argument, because I was being kicked out of the house if I didn't go to church that day. Mom slapped me because I talked back to her and said no, I am not going. I don't feel comfortable, being forced to go like you always do. I locked myself in my room after. He spoke to me that moment and asked me if I wanted to leave with him that I would stop hurting. I asked him, how? He told me to take the pills and that I would fall asleep and not awake anymore. That he would take me, were I wouldn't feel that way anymore. I did, took my moms 2 full medication bottles and a a bottle of Tylenol and drank them with water. He told me to lay down and just fall asleep, and it would all be over soon. I felt dizzy and started feeling my body weaken and felt scared so I went next door to my best friend house and knocked as I could, she answered and I remember last being able to tell her i took pills. I don't remember anything else, but waking up in the hospital with a plastic tube up my nose. vomit everywhere and a doctor asking the nurse who was responsible for my care because they had inserted the wrong tube size. He seemed upset. After that, I was left there all night and no-one showed to claim me or pick me up. I called a friend to get me to take me home. No one cared. He disappeared for a while after that. Years passed and I got into a relationship. He appeared again. only a few times he showed, during the relationship on and off. He would tell me stuff my partners were doing and would tell me when they were lying to me. This went on for a while. Until, my last marriage. I never told my husband or previous boyfriends, but they sure questioned themselves how I knew many things I couldn't know unless I had cameras up or was spying. ( which I wasn't) 6 years ago he disappeared, He came back 4 years ago. showed himself quit a lot, he told me to take my life by cutting my veins. So I stopped listening to him, I ignored him and he would just talk and tell me he wasn't gonna leave. I would hear him, but didn't turn or pay attention and he eventually started to come less and less. Again, he showed 2 years ago, I fell into a depression with my current husband, going through a divorce. I talked to him only a few times then ignored him again. I was consuming drugs so I didn't wanna be heard talking to myself. Then, I would see his shadow, but didn't hear him talk ever after that. He followed me around, always. July 2019 until march 2020. When (I reconciled with my x husband again)we moved in together. He spoke to me to tell me things he was lying to me about. A month ago, He sounded angry, I have never heard his voice so scary. It scared me. I was cleaning my fur babies room and he appeared darker than normal at top this time not corner, but middle of the closet in between clothing hanging, He said angry.... Not to trust Mario, because he meant to just to hurt me. That he was up to something. (well call my partner Mario). I was tempted to tell Mario, but just left the room and called him because I felt scared, but didn't wanna tell him. I felt he wasn't gonna believe me anyway. I seeked help, but at last moment haven't told the story. I did tell one lady from social services, she helped me get on antidepressants. I never told her all this though. How do you tell a Dr. this? I been ignoring this now angry shadow that use to be my friend. I hear him telling me so many things, that are supplely going on right now. I refuse to listen to him, should I tell someone? who can I trust? I'm tired of him being here. Just want him to go away now. I think he showed himself to us last night. I ignored it... but Mario seen him. I pretended not to see anything and ignored his comment. He normally is up high in a corner or middle side wall. I don't know what to do. Anyone experience anything like this? how do you manage? Is there something wrong with me? Should I tell my doctor? I don't know who to trust. :'( . Just overwhelmed. He's here now, I don't dare turn look anymore. I was gonna watch a movie called "Don't Listen" but now feel its not a good idea. I was curious to see if I can relate to what that is about. Any suggestions? sorry for making it long. Just have to let this out, it's time.~Lost soul~